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I'm in a pensive mood, kinda been in a funk and find myself thinking... and thinking... but not really arriving at anything lol That usually means I am living in my own head too much, and it's time to open some windows. So if I may, here's what's keeping me up tonight.

I was watching some breakdowns of the changing (rather, weakening) magnetic fields of earth, and it's walking (rather, sprinting) poles and what such changes mean to the planet. My mind flashed back to when Oumuamua made an appearance years ago and I was very excited at the time because my strong feeling was that it was a scout and an omen of big changes for our planet in the future. Then I start to think about all this second moon business and incoming celestial bodies from outside our solar system again. There is a pervasive feeling of a great 'something' on our human horizons, and yet depending on who you talk to it can be as many possibilities as there are beings on Earth.

Sometimes I think as a human being it is a really frustrating experience because I struggle with a feeling of "If I had all the data, I could make a conclusion, but all I have are these strange experiences, it's like someone else is playing with a full deck of cards and I have only jokers". Something to that effect, I can't really put it into words. I once had a dream that someone was trying to give me a huge book to read in a cave and I kept crying out "I can't read it!" and the being who I couldn't see shouted "yes you can, READ!" and I woke up. Sometimes I feel that since then I somehow halted any progress I was making due to a series of traumatic events. I think I would be a good candidate for regression, I definitely need someone wiser than me. In another time that person would have been my late father, which brings me to my last thought, I promise.

Having a nerdy family I grew up on sci-fi anthologies and movies but my absolute obsession when it came out was the Mass Effect video games series. The Mass Effect Universe always struck me as the most likely example of what a space faring humanity would look like, and that it would happen in my lifetime. We were poor so the gaming system was a big investment for us and we had a cozy set up in the living room. One evening dad was watching me play and a very speech heavy part of the game and he teased "geez when do you start shooting space zombies already?". I of course had to explain, well, it's actually all about diplomacy for the most part. You have to navigate having a crew of multiple species (space racism, ah, not to mention the romance options), you need allies and tech for war, there's new diseases and challenges that can affect the whole galaxy. Which is partly why I LOVED the series because I think ultimately space faring humanity would have to be the ultimate communicators. He shrugged and smiled at how eager I was about the idea, and I switched to a different save where I could snipe space zombies with superior shotgun power. Later on I made my own Commander Shepard body armor out of foam and grew out of playing the games as time passed. But when that particular memory pops up I often think "Sorry young me, we aren't in space, yet".

Phew, I think I cleared out some of the cob webs. As dad would joke, "we're Irish Anita, we love good craic (banter)". If this were a pub, I'd buy you a beer for listening. Is there anything you've been pondering on? Do you want to see my Commander Shepard costume? lol